Seeking and trying. Thinking…

What is this?

Confusion swirls. Questions haunt.

And through it all there is the ribbon of pain.

I thought it was gone. Oh yes, I thought it was gone.

But no, it’s still there, winding throughout.

I wonder, will it ever be gone.

Will it ever leave me?

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I want to break free.

Raise my hands and dance.

I want to laugh.

Carefree and happy.

Is that to be this side of heaven?

Or have I hoped for something that can never be?

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One step in the journey.

This time I take to ponder and to think.

One step on the quest.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

What shall it bring?

Only God and tomorrow know.

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One deep breath

One carefree smile

Yes, I’ll make it through this time too.

There will be joy.

I’ve claimed it as mine.

This pain is not my master.

I serve the God of love.

In Him I trust and hope and breath free.